moving on to my third yr.. transiting on..

for gd or for worst, it's up to me to decide

大海

从那遥远海边慢慢消失的你
本来模糊的脸竟然渐渐清晰
想要说些什麽又不知从何说起
只有把它放在心底

茫然走在海边看那潮来潮去
徒劳无功想把每朵浪花记清
想要说声爱你却被吹散在风里
猛然回头你在那里

如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱
就让我用一生等待
如果深情往事你已不再留恋
就让它随风飘远

如果大海能够带走我的哀愁
就像带走每条河流
所有受过的伤所有流过的泪
我的爱请全部带走

难说再见

习惯一起走过 　　没想你不在的生活 　　
泪雨也是阳光闪烁 是避风的角落 　　
离开会成最美的洒脱
　　　　
眼是心的守诺 　　我和你不逃过 　　
你是我一辈子的收获 　　　　
难说再见 　　

你的微笑遗落在我眼前 　　
难说再见 　　

永远不忘转身瞬间 　　
海阔天空在明天 　　

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人生并未售来回票，失去的便永远不再

把钱省下来，等待退休后再去享受结果退休后，因为年纪大，身体差，行动不方便，哪里也去不成。钱存下来等养老，结果孩子长大了，要出国留学，要创业做生意，要花钱娶老婆， 自己的退休金都被拗走了。 当自己有足够的能力善待自己时，就立刻去做，老年人有时候是无法做中年人或是青少年人可以做的事， 年纪和健康就是一大因素。小孩子从小就告诉他，养你到高中，大学以后就要自立更生，要留学，创业，娶老婆，自己想办法，自己要留多一点钱， 不要为了小孩子而活。 我们都老得太快却聪明得太迟，我的学长去年丧妻。 这突如其来的事故，实在叫人难以接受，但是死亡的到来不总是如此。学长说他太太最希望他能送鲜花给他，但是他觉得太浪费， 总推说等到下次再买， 结果却是在她死后，用鲜花布置她的灵堂。这不是太蠢愚了吗？！等到......、等到.....，似乎我们所有的生命，都用在等待。 「等到我大学毕业以后，我就会如何如何」我们对自己说「等到我买房子以后！」「等我最小的孩子结婚之后！」「等我把这笔生意谈成之后！」「等到我死了以后」人人都很愿意牺牲当下，去换取未知的等待；牺牲今生今世的辛苦钱，去购买后 世的安逸。 在台湾只要往有山的道路上走一走，就随处都可看到「农舍」变「精舍」，山坡地变灵塔，无非也是为了等到死后，能图个保障，不必再受苦。许多人认为必须等到某时或某事完成之后再采取行动。 明天我就开始运动明天我就会对他好一点 下星期我们就找时间出去走走 退休后，我们就要好好享受一下 然而，生活总是一直变动，环境总是不可预知， 在现实生活中，各种突发状况总是层出不穷。身为一个医生，我所见过的死人，比一般人要来得多。 这些人早上醒来时，原本预期过的是另一个平凡无奇的日子，没想到一个意料之外的事； 交通意外、脑溢血、心脏病发作等等。 剎那间生命的巨轮倾覆离轨，突然闯进一片黑暗之中。那么我们要如何面对生命呢？我们毋需等到生活完美无瑕， 也毋需等到一切都平稳，想做什么，现在就可以开始做起。一个人永远也无法预料未来，所以不要延缓想过的生活， 不要吝于表达心中的话， 因为生命只在一瞬间。 记住！给活人送一朵鲜花，强过给死人送贵重的花圈每个人的生命都有尽头，许多人经常在生命即将结束时，才发现自己还有很多事没有做，有许多话来不及说，这实在是人生最大的遗憾。别让自己徒留「为时已晚」的空余恨。逝者不可追，来者犹未卜，最珍贵、最需要实时掌握的「当下」，往往在这两者蹉跎间，转眼错失。 人生短暂飘忽，包得有一首小诗这样写：高天与原地，悠悠人生路；行行向何方，转眼即长暮。正是道尽了人生如寄，转眼即逝的惶恐。有许多事，在你还不懂得珍惜之前已成旧事；有许多人， 在你还来不及用心之前 已成旧人。 遗憾的事一再发生，但过后再追悔 早知道如何如何」是没有用的， 「那时候」已经过去，你追念的人也已走过了你 一句瑞典格言说：「我们老得太快，却聪明得太迟。」 不管你是否察觉，生命都一直在前进人生并未售来回票，失去的便永远不再将希望寄予「等到方便的时间才享受」我们不知失去了多少可能的幸福不要再等待有一天你「可以松口气」，或是「麻烦都过去了」。生命中大部分的美好事物都是短暂易逝的， 享受它们、品尝它们， 善待你周围的每一个 人， 别把时间浪费在等待所有难题的「完满结局」上。 找回迷失的生命死亡 也许是免费的 ─ 但是，却要付出生命的代价。劝大家一句话：把握当下，莫等待。

好想拍张全家福。。

刚看了facebook。。 看到了一个colleague post 的全家福。。 好羡慕她。。 可以introduce her family members to the world..

还是很想你。。

自从facebook allows one to track who's viewing them.. 我就不什么敢天天click你的link了。。 but still miss you alot.. it should be 7am+ at where u are now.. hope you're gonna enjoy this beautiful tuesday.. May God lok after you, may this be a good day for you.. missing you..

haha.. on a side note.. just seeing you 3 times when you were back made me pinn for you so much.. eventhou it's already awhile since you went back le.. 还是很想你。。

Missing him...

My ear felt itchy just now.. instintively.. i looked at the clock to chk if he's awake.. haha.. crazy..

很想哭，但是没时间哭。。

我真的真的好累。。 心情真的很不好。。
can i just hide somewhere? can someone help me to finish doing everything that i need to do?

Tze Vin.. thanks for taking that photo with me.. if not for looking at you smiling from my phone.. i dunno how i can carry on with all the distraction in my life..

心情超烂！！！

I Miss U, Mr Sim.. miss u alot..

Personal infoActivities: Movies, reading, hanging out with friends...
Music: Mandarin ballads, sad but true, songs nowadays don't have really meaningful lyrics...
TV programmes: Nope, no tv at home, so anything on Hulu.com is good enough... comedies, definitely...
Films: Always game for a laugh! And anything that explores a side that I never know, culturally, personally, experiences et al!
Books: Fiction and now branching out into Social enterprise and business.., Best books so far are Alice Sebold's Lovely Bones, Time Traveller's Wife
About me: True blue Gemini... Laugh all you want... (-_-")... It's uncanny, may have to do with the fact that my birthday's smack in the middle of the Gemini-sign!

Potently Poisoned by you...

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今天是27 DEC2009。。
I’m at the starbucks opposide Isetan Shaw Orchard.. the first starbucks we’ve went together.. the place where we first went for our first date, remember? The first Sandy’s concert that we went together. Where we met at borders, made a circle around the escalator and 发现我们又回到了原点in a rather awkward manner. So as we were early, we decided to find a place to sit down and decided on this starbucks.. that’s where you went to buy the first Green Tea Frapp for me.. and discovered, (and hopefully) still remember that my fave drink is Starbucks Green Tea Frapp..
Have not seen you for 357 天了。。 而突然间，在短短的一个星期内，看到了你两次。。 而且还与你一起度过了接近13小时。。 that’s more than half a day.. I’m so happie..
Mr Sim, 还以为，在这357天，对你的感觉已经淡了。。 没想到，你一回来，却把我思绪全都又搞砸了。。realized that I’m still hopelessly liking you.. Why? I wonder why..

Nonetheless, I must blog down the 295 mins that we spent together on 21st Dec 09, and the 630 mins on X’mas.

21st Dec 09
It all started when I was helping up in moving the office. Sitting in the training room with nothing better to do, and was looking at how I should plan my schduele for the following week, i decided to give you a call to chk when you will want to have the X'mas gathering.. Cos i really don't wish to miss it, but looking at my schduler, I'm scared that I can't cater the time out should it clashes with my other gatherings.. and thus, on 14th Dec 09, at 1pm, made a call to you to ask instead.. haha.. 好不要脸。。 when i realised you're having lunch with Susu jie.. felt rather sad.. this tells me how much i meant to you.. nothing.. back for so many days.. dining with a common friend who also asked you to buy something back.. and yet, didn't contact me at all.. do you really don't wana see me at all? anniway, thankfully for the USD 95 crest.. i got to mt you one time before the actual X'mas gathering.. 原本只是5 mins 的passing of things, 变成了breakfast meeting, 而thankfully 成为了一个noon meeting, whereby although I'm not privileged to have lunch with you yet, I got to do my X'mas shopping with you! ALONE! I was totally totally happie!
Remembered while I was still waiting for my nails to dry, at about 130 or so, received your sms telling me that you've reached.. quickly, i called you to confirm where you are and wanted to rush over there immediately.. 还记得while i was inside the Orchard Centeral lift, i told myself.. "Sindy, remember to breathe, 呼吸，呼吸".. haha.. i was so scare I will forget to breathe.. running over from Orchard Centeral to 313.. moving up the stairs to level 3 to find you.. and finally seeing you.. with you hair gelled to the side, and in the pink checker shirt.. waiting outside the junction for me, looking at ur iphone, without noticing that I've reached.. it totally blow my breathe away.. blow all my beings away.. my thots, my presence, my logic, my everything.. all i wanted to do is to run up to you and hug you.. but of cos.. i held back again.. i'm really thankful that you didn't noticed me so that I can slowly make my way to your front, and during all the while, feast my eyes at you.. even when i finally stand rite in front of you, you almost didn't notice me.. haha.. thereafter, 陪你一起经Uniqlo to look at winter wear.. it was as thou that this year of being apart didn't change annithing at all! it's so easy to just stand there and hear you talk! telling me what you thot.. how snobbish you are, what a wonderlife lifestyle you had at NY! occasionally I just repeat what you say, occasionally I would just contradict you in jest, occasionally, I would look at you in the eyes and ask why this why that..
Argh.. 好好好好好幸福啊！
thereafter, we went out of 313.. and he was so cute when he was standing at the middle of the mall, trying to determine should he turn left or rite to walk.. cos he wasn't sure of his bearings.. so i luffed, and lead him out to the streets, and at that moment, he told me "Sindy, 你好像瘦了".. wau.. i could have die of happiness then.. haha.. so i guess i look positive in front of him bah.. then when we stepped out, he said that he wana eat the street style ice cream.. and he paid for my share too..
i was secretly hoping that he have brought his camera out so that i can hopefully take a photo of him.. and he realli did.. so i said, tv, since you're a tourist, do you have camera to take photos, and he took it out.. and as we make out way to taka to take the take x'mas tree, i helped him to snap one with the tree.. and he helped me to take one too!! and he knelt down on one knee to do so! as thou it's like a proposal style! haha.. 幸福的快要死掉了啦！

SIM TZE VIN!! I love you!!!!!!

How Far?

The nest of young eagles hung on every word as the Master Eagle described his exploits. This was an important day for the eaglets. They were preparing for their first solo flight from the nest. It was the confidence builder many of them needed to fulfill their destiny.

"How far can I travel?" asked one of the eaglets.
"How far can you see?" responded the Master Eagle.
"How high can I fly?" quizzed the young eaglet.
"How far can you stretch your wings?" asked the old eagle.
"How long can I fly?" the eaglet persisted.
"How far is the horizon?" the mentor rebounded.
"How much should I dream?" asked the eaglet.
"How much can you dream?" smiled the older, wiser eagle.
"How much can I achieve?" the young eagle continued."
How much can you believe?" the old eagle challenged.
Frustrated by the banter, the young eagle demanded, "Why don't you answer my questions?"
"I did.""Yes. But you answered them with questions."
"I answered them the best I could."
"But you're the Master Eagle. You're supposed to know everything.
If you can't answer these questions, who can?""You." The old wise eagle reassured."Me? How?" the young eagle was confused."No one can tell you how high to fly or how much to dream. It's different for each eagle. Only God and you know how far you'll go. No one on this earth knows your potential or what's in your heart. You alone will answer that. The only thing that limits you is the edge of your imagination."
The young eagle puzzled by this asked, "What should I do?"
"Look to the horizon, spread your wings, and fly."

Skin

Zero pores. Freckle-free. Porcelain smoothness. Who doesn't dream of having a flawless, healthy complexion? Read on for our top skincare tips that'll get your skin glowing in the pink of health.
Hygiene

Back to basics: A great complexion starts with clean skin. Here's how to keep it that way.
Wash your face twice a day with a suitable cleanser for your skin type. If your skin is sensitive, choose a gentle cleanser that is free of fragrance and harsh irritants. If you have acne-prone skin, look for an oil-free face wash with anti-acne medications to prevent future breakouts.

Know when and how to pop a pimple. Leave your zits alone! Don't pick at them or you could risk infection and scarring. If your pimple is showing head and looks ready to pop, it's okay to gently extract the contents to aid your skin's healing process, but make sure you know the correct way to pop a pimple safely – with clean hands.

Keep your makeup brushes and sponges clean by washing them with soap and warm water once a week or every other week. Every now and then, clear out the old makeup and stock up on new ones – most cosmetics have an average shelf life of 6 to 12 months.

Moisturize your skin, especially if you're holed up inside an air-conditioned workplace everyday. Air-conditioning strips your skin of moisture quickly, so keep your skin hydrated with a moisturizer and prevent chapped lips with a lip balm.

Rejuvenate your skin with a weekly treatment. Choose an exfoliant and face mask that suits your skin needs. For example, if your skin tends to be dehydrated, look for an emollient scrub and moisturizing mask; if you have oily skin, choose an effective exfoliant and purifying mask to help remove the excess sebum.

Use sun protection. With so many sunscreen products on the shelves today, there's absolutely no excuse for sun-damaged skin. Protect yourself from the sun's harmful UV rays using a sunscreen with at least SPF 15.

Listen to your skin. Our skin is a living organ, and like all living things, its needs can change over time. When we age, when we relocate to a place with a different climate, or even when we have a change of working environment, our skin condition can change in response to several factors, so it's essential to review your skincare products – when your usual products aren't working as well as they used to, it's time to start shopping for new ones.

Don't neglect your elbows, heels, neck and decolletage. Many of us don't pay enough attention to these areas, but they're prone to dryness and need moisturizing.

Eat well-balanced meals. Good nutrition is so important to your skin's health that if you fall even a tad short of certain nutrients, you're likely to see some skin-related symptoms. Biotin, for example, is a nutrient that forms the basis of skin, nail and hair cells, and deficiency can lead to dermatitis (an itchy, scaly skin reaction). Vitamins C and E act as antioxidants by reducing the damage caused by free radicals, while vitamin A is necessary for the maintenance and repair of skin tissue.

Get your beauty rest. Frequent late-nights can cause your skin to suffer. Sleep is the time when the skin repairs itself, so make sure you are getting enough zzs every night.

Quit smoking. Smoking dramatically impairs blood circulation under the surface of the skin. That's why smokers' skin looks dry, dull and gray. Free radicals from the smoke also oxidizes the skin, accelerating the skin's aging process.

Get active. Exercise boosts blood circulation and keeps your skin glowing with health. Aim for a minimum of 30 minutes of workout at least 3 to 4 times a week.

Stay happy. Emotional stress can traumatize skin. Learning to unwind with calming techniques such as practising yoga or meditation or just listening to relaxing music not only helps lift your spirits, it'll benefit your skin too!

9 Steps to Fight Skin Ageing
To effectively counter skin ageing, your anti-ageing skincare product must simultaneously treat all the 9 effects of ageing:
Improve your skin's moisture balance
Reduce the appearance of fine lines and wrinkles
Reduce visible pigmentation and age spots
Brighten skin, making it more youthful and evenly-toned
Reduce dark circles and bags in the under-eye area
Tighten skin pores
Improve firmness of the skin
Improve overall smoothness of the skin
Prevent further signs of ageing

Chosing the best Mask for my Skin

No matter what's your skin type, face masks are excellent as an instant skin booster between your monthly appointments with your facialist. But you'll only get the best results if you choose a mask that targets your specific skin type and addresses any problems you have, so here's how to pick the best masks for your skin:

Masks for Oily or Acne-Prone Skin

Choose Purifying Masks. These types of masks draw out impurities and are the perfect choice for purging dirt and grime for oily and combination skin types. Commonly made of mud and clay, they help to tighten your skin tone as they dry, and ridding excess sebum. Look out for antiseptic ingredients to help treat skin problems especially if you're prone to breakouts.

Masks: Mud, Clay, Deep Cleansing, Clarifying, Purifying, Cooling.

Beneficial Ingredients:
kaolin, clay and aluminium magnesium silicate (oil-absorbing)
witch hazel and zinc oxide (antiseptic)
eucalyptus (purge impurities)
pumpkin or papaya extracts (exfoliants)
benzoyl peroxide (acne prevention and treatment)
menthol (invigorating).

Usage: Wear until the mask dries completely, or as directed, then rinse off with warm water.


Masks for Dry Skin

Choose Hydrating Masks. Hydrating masks hydrate and replenish moisture in dry skin, making dehydrated skin cells soft and supple and reducing the appearance of fine lines and wrinkles. Go for richer formulas such as cream masks if you have very dry or mature skin.

Masks: Hydrating, Moisturizing, Cream, Sheet / Tissue Masks.

Beneficial Ingredients:
avocado, aloe, vitamin B Panthenol, jojoba and oils (moisturizing)
collagen (skin plumping)
buttermilk (soothing)
hyaluronic acid (skin-filling and wrinkle reduction).

Usage: Leave on for 20 minutes, or as indicated, and remove with tissues or lukewarm water. With some masks, the remaining traces can be left on the skin to be absorbed and there's no need to wash off.

Masks for Dull Skin

Choose Exfoliating Masks. Natural plant ingredients work as exfoliants by sloughing off dead surface cells and dirt. The dull surface skin layer is exfoliated to reveal brighter, more radiant-looking skin.

Masks: Exfoliating, Purifying, Whitening, Botanical.

Beneficial Ingredients:pumpkin and papaya extracts (exfoliants)
menthol and peppermint (invigorating)
AHAs (exfoliant)
eucalyptus (purge impurities)

Usage: These can be used by most skin types but people with sensitive skin should read the labels carefully.

Masks for Sensitive Skin

Choose Gentle Masks. These masks are used to calm redness and tightness of the skin, and is suitable for all skin types. For hyper-sensitive skin, opt for masks that are fragrance- and preservative-free.

Masks: Gentle, Calming, Relaxing, Soothing.
Beneficial Ingredients:
kaolin (oil-absorbing)
caffeine and grapefruit seed extract (reduce redness)
honey (soothing)
aloe and chamomile extract (anti-inflammatory).

Usage: Wear the mask following the instructions, and wipe away gently with tissues or washcloth.

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15 years..

My life changed today.. from 3.30pm onwards..
amazingly, it will be changed today again.. time to relook and replan..

心動

有多久沒見你　以為你在哪裡
原來就住在我心底　陪伴著我的呼吸

有多遠的距離　以為聞不到你氣息
誰知道你背影這麼長　回頭就看到你

過去讓它過去　來不及　從頭喜歡你
白雲　纏繞著藍天　如果不能夠永遠走在一起
也至少給我們懷念的勇氣　擁抱的權利
好讓你明白　我心動　的痕跡

總是想再見你　還試著打探你　消息
原來你就住在我的身體　守護我的回憶

好久没有想你了。。你还好吗？
我被动摇了吗？应该没有把。。
take good care, i miss you.. =)