Death is perpetual, but we'll always live on in each other heart.
As you take ur last breath, whoever that fills your thots, and whom you will create a
void for the rest of their lives until you reunite in heaven or any other dimension again, are those that really matters. Treasure this group of pple, and live for and with them. Take time off to create more happie memories for them to remember you with. Work can wait, pple and events that doesnt matter shouldn't be your priority. Dun hesitate to let them know how impt they are to you, and dun be scare to show ur love towards them. Indulge in things you want to do and love urself more everyday. Aim to make you and them happie everyday, cos you'll never know when ur last day is. As you breath your last breathe, you'll be at peace that you've gave them all the happiness that no one can replace, and you'll wait patiently for the day you reunite again.
I love you gals!

It's not ur face, it's ur heart, mind and soul that's important.

My fave song!

疯狂世界(五月天)
如果说了后悔是不是一切就能倒退
回忆多么美活着多么狼狈
为什么这个世界总要叫人尝伤悲
我不能了解也不想了解

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回

(music)
想了你一整夜再也想不起你的脸
你是一种感觉写在夏夜晚风里面
青春是挽不回的水转眼消失在指间
用力的浪费再用力的后悔

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回
(music)

An unhappie day! 逃离是非地

好讨厌复杂与是非的生活。 向往简单，与世无争的日子。
Surround myself with love everyday. Avoid the negatives. Keep to a small Circle, dun care too much, and ignore all matters ya? Great mind discuss ideas, average, events, and small mind, people. When I enetered finexis abt 4-5 yrs ago, all I have in mind is to help pple to plan. It hurts not to have a financial plan in place. I've never though of becoming rich in this career, just earning enough, and enjoy the things I love doing. That's all.

真不明白事情为何会变成这样。。 别跟太多人走得太轻近吧。 Just concentrate on doing what I love, and loving what I do. Heard a story today that happened to a person. 惋惜吧，having a family, with kids doesn't matters. A person will just change. Nothing last forever, not even with ur partner and child's love. It doesn't matter if one is married, divorce will still happen if the heart's no longer there. Thus, I have no faith in an lawful union.

还是同样的一句话，开心就走在一起，不开心就分吧。 既来之则安之 我　爛命一條　走在路上　影子在地上 像　我的慌張　黏在腳下　抓著我不放 我不懂　我不是這樣　我不該這樣 額頭流下的汗　又流進眼眶 為什麼　要給我　一顆跳動的心臟 卻忘了　給我飛翔的翅膀 每天我活在這多無聊的地方 多麼　想要　流浪 為什麼要給我　一顆跳動的心臟 又把我　丟在這寂寞戰場 這世界有多大我就有多徬徨 有沒有一點希望　讓我去闖　天涯海角　讓我去闖 把　我的靈魂　裝進紙箱　寄送到天堂 那　雲端的光　會不會是　希望的形狀 每一天　來了又走了匆忙的太陽 感覺自己蒸發　慢慢從這個　世界上 為什麼　要給我　一顆跳動的心臟 卻忘了　給我飛翔的翅膀 每天我活在這多無聊的地方 多麼　想要　流浪 為什麼要給我　一顆跳動的心臟 又把我　丟在這寂寞戰場 這世界有多大我就有多徬徨 有沒有一點希望　讓我去闖　天涯海角　讓我去闖

词不达意

04.词不达意

有些人用一辈子去学习
化解沟通的难题
为你我也可以
我的快乐与恐惧猜疑
很想都翻译成言语
带你进我心底
我们就像隔着一层玻璃
看得见却触不及
虽然我离你几毫米
你不会知道我有多着急
无心的坐视不理
我尴尬的沉默里
泪水在滴
我无法传达我自己
从何说起
要如何翻译我爱你
寂寞不已
我也想能与你搭起桥梁
建立默契
却词不达意
在你的盲点里寸步不移
不论天晴或下雨
陪着你悲伤欢喜
你难道从来不觉得好奇
你身旁冷清拥挤
我一直在这里
不说一句
我无法传达我自己
从何说起
却无法翻译我爱你
遗憾不已
我也想能与你搭起桥梁　
建立默契
我必须得先看明白我自己
翻译成一句我爱你
我也想能与你搭起桥梁　
建立默契
却词不达意　
词不达意

thanks Sandy

Thanks, Sandy

第三次与他去看 Sandy的concert 了。 
这次，是个好棒的concert。Sandy was amazing!
Thanks for letting me fall in love with ur child like image during ur 伤痕album. Ur songs are simply touching, the way you sing is simply captivating, and ur stamina, amazing. 真是一个很棒很棒的concert..
From the beginning where you rocked us thru, to the part I love most when you sang 词不达意and danced with the dancer, it's really beautiful, very artistic, very, very powerful, yet fragile and beautiful. 好几次，差点被你弄哭，luckily the movement between ur songs were rapid enough to divert my attention.  And of cos, it was so pretty when the bubbles were in the air..
And you know what, I kept telling myself that Tze Vin doesn't means anything other than a friend, and I think I can quite keep to this! Even now, thou I really wana blog down tonite's memories of him, but I've decided that i want to write to remember the concert more than of him. I will con't to work hard to keep him out of my mind.  And my fave performance, 词不达意, is actually abt a ger liking someone and wants to find a way to communicate with him to tell him that she likes him, sorta describes the situation I am in. But I'll work hard, we will always be 2 parallel lines only. 
所以，今晚，除了记下当他看到我拿不到confetti 之后而帮我从地上捡了起来给我，and it's now safely tucked in the Sistic envelope and lying in my drawer now, there's nth else That i wana pen down and indulge myself in.
And one more thing, he mentioned this when we were leaving, 下次来我们要再park在这里。will there be a next time? Let time tell bah..
Dear Father God.. Thank you for creating such a beautiful nite for me.. Pls bless Tze Vin and help him find a job that he wants, will enjoy and is happy about. May his career path be successful, and happiness to surround him and his family always! 

爱、深、痛

突然间，看着你的Facebook,看着你留下的 comments, 看着你与别人的 interaction, 感觉与你很遥远。 我们始终是两个平行线，属于两个完全不同世界的人。你，是那么的友善，那么的爱与人接触，身边永远都少不了朋友。好朋友，新朋友，各种国际的朋友，以后的 CEO，ministers, headliners etc.. 而我，却是一个不爱交朋友，没信心与人交谈，不爱为了chat for the sake of chatting 的人。
我们怎么能够有一天能够走在一起呢？ 而你知道吗，我喜欢你的就是那份充满活力，那个笑容灿烂的你。 看到你笑，总让我觉得世界上是没有烦恼的。 我总能陶醉你那滔滔不绝的话题中。 我真的好喜欢你。而我真的是一个很执着的人，我永远都会将自己心爱的人，事，物与梦想抓得很紧的。就快要迈向单恋你的第5年了，从26岁，一直到了30岁的我。 是该放下了吧。 希望，我不会再为你而流泪了，希望，我不会再把你当成我失败的借口了。 希望，我不会因你，也害你在被大家嘲笑与作弄了。我真的不知道为什么会那么的喜欢你，真的，喜欢一个人是没有原因的。真的不知道我是不会爱，还是太懂爱了。
The seed was planted at Sandy's first concert, the KTV where you bought 2 bottles of evian for me, the gathering at orchard where we spent time alone chatting, and you giving me attention that touched me, the church musical which a letdown, lee hom's concert, all the farewell and welcome back gatherings for you, Sandy's concert again, and of cos, the Vietnam getaway.. Which eventually made me decide to let you know that I like you, and how I have to pretend to be nonchanlent thereafter, 每时每刻，都深深的刻在我的心深处。希望我能在这次的concert将一切放下了。
From the bottom of my heart, I wish that you will find the person of ur dreams, to accompany you for the rest of ur life, for everything in ur life to be smooth sailing, to be able to smile as happily, as heartily just like everyday in ur life, for angels to surround you daily, and to give you every reason to to feel blessed. 希望这次真的能够放得下你。
Loving you every day of my remaining life..

梁静茹 - 别再为他流泪


你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好 就算了
心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧 一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你 那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧 一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧 一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后管他是谁

谢谢你五月天

For reminding me to stay real
For releasing the inner rock core in me
For forgetting all my worries and unhappiness
For singing and shirking for the whole nite
For giving this 2 beautiful sight - during 倔强 with those rainbow placards, and 知足 with those flashlite stars, 真的好touching
For singing my face song- 倔强
For Touching me with that beautiful clip
For inserting those 2 lines of Yellow Submarine! That's one of my fave Beatles song.
Thanks Mayday, thanks for helping me to find back my heart, for reminding me to find back my courage to face myself, for writing so many inspiring songs, for giving me hope.

Haha.. Eventhough, this is the first time I've ever paid $230 for a concert tic where I'm seated so far away, every cent is totally worth it.
Every moment touched me deeply..
So as I was counting with Shihui initially, I've been to
1) The free concert held beside Indoor Stadium- Feb 2009
2) The concert in Indoor stadium- Aug 2009
3) The concert in National Sadium- Apr 2010
4) Today's concert- Feb 2012

I'm so looking forward to our next concert, and I'm sure, I'll report to all ur concerts as long as we're still alive. Thanks!

我知道我爱。。。

我知道我爱，　所以可能。　有自己的路上选其所爱，爱其所选，选错了跌伤了再爬起来，就是成长。
成长是唯一的希望。。

Beautiful

Stanford Report, June 14, 2005
'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says
This is a prepared text of the Commencement address delivered by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

不良笑花

最进发疯的追看不良笑花。。超好笑。。 哈哈。 i'll always rememeber to call my hair dryer 呼呼了。。
anniway, learnt some stuffs from this show..
我不是有自信，只是喜欢自己拥有的一切。。
直到有一天， 当我回顾我的人生，我会知道我错过了什么，但我不会后悔。。
到了那边，记得要帮我向圣诞树说声harlow,然后你要记得，台湾的圣诞树，也在等你回来，等你会来给她幸福哦！

There are 5 things in life you cannot recover:

A stone...after it's thrown.
A word...after it is said.
...An occasion...after it's missed.
...The time...after it's gone.
A person...after they die.

Life is short. Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably. And never regret anything that made you smile, Enjoy Life, living it to the fullest & without regrets!

Obstacles are the thing you see when you takes ur eyes off ur goals

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets so love the people who treats you right, and forget the ones that don't. And believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it, if it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it would be easy, they just promise that it would be worth it.

Beautiful Song with a sad and beautiful story.

Beautiful words make me tear..

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薛凱琪《不要愛我》詞解
Author: 小寒03.06.2011
“心動時，我們想關起來的，是理智的忠告，還是現實的阻礙？”

前幾個月的某一天，
我接到一封電郵，
附件是一首Demo.
用itunes打開時，
在Name一欄中寫著Khalil Fong。
細讀電郵的內容，
更覺得開心，
因為演唱者將是薛凱琪。

曾聽房祖名和我聊起剛合作拍完電影《分手說愛你》的Fiona，
便覺得這位獅子座的女生很有個性，
若能為她寫歌詞，
將會很有挑戰性。

另一方面，
能夠再次寫到方大同的歌，
自覺很榮幸。
因為他為別人寫的歌並不多，
只有少數歌手邀得到他寫歌。
既然如此，
能夠2次合作，
（第一首是潘辰《起風的季節》）
就表示他與他的團隊：
Charles和Edward他們對我的作品還不太排斥。

和我合作過的歌手，
許多都從不擺架子。
Fiona也是。
她向她的經紀人索取了我的電郵和電話號碼之後，
便第一時間打電話給我，
和我分享了她對歌詞的想法。
縱使在內地偏遠地帶排戲，
一旦有網絡訊息，
她就會查看我的歌詞，
並馬上給予我意見。
過程雖然有點小辛苦，
但絕對是寫得很開心的一個Case

《不要愛我》的原概念說的是：
當你碰到一個這輩子再也不可能碰到的，
再好的人時，
你會很惜福，會很感激緣份。
然而同時你也很小心，
一直當知己，
享受和對方相處的同時，
也其實是在折磨自己，
不能再進一步地靠近對方。

（我很想跟Fiona說我還沒有這種經驗，
因為我是理智派的魔羯座，
要是碰到這麼好的男生，
而我覺得我們有可能發展的話，
我是不會猶豫的。
在一起了之後，
我會竭盡所能為這段珍貴的感情努力，
不讓遲疑能得一點逞。
反之，要是我覺得我們不會長久的話，
我會很快將我對他的愛的感覺消滅掉，
回歸當朋友的自然。）

其實我對這個概念非常熟悉，
因為這是我自己兩個好朋友，
在6年前的經歷。
歌詞的好多句子，
都以他們當時對我傾訴的話語為藍本。

來，詞解。

薛凱琪《不要愛我》
曲：方大同



脫下眼鏡閉上眼睛
挨近的心該不該停

這2句是Fiona要求的，
希望和粵語詞相似，
提醒聽眾這是《除下吊帶前》的中文版。
但在這之後，
詞意將完全不一樣。

呼吸很輕夢仍甦醒

想像現在的感覺是一個美麗的泡泡，
一不小心，
就會被戳破。
你想更靠近它時，
留心地將所有呼吸都摒住了，
可是你甚麼都沒做，
美夢就醒了。
你回到現實，
看到自己，
看到對方，
覺得難堪，
又覺得可惜。
叫醒自己的，是理智，
或這就是我們的命？

莫非已經 是最美風景
當時我對我那兩位不適合交往的朋友說：
“你們能做最要好的朋友，
已經等於攀上了山的頂端，
看盡了世界最美的風景。
再走一步，
就是下坡路，
景色不僅越來越差，
甚至有摔跤的可能。”

我多想要你這我不會否認
但是親吻了 就有 想愛 衝動 萌生

來到prechorus，
應該加入人稱了。
這裡起，理智開始說話了。
本來就蠢蠢欲動的希望，
吻下去，
一切即將決堤，
一切就像一部沒有煞車器的車子，
橫衝直撞，
失去控制。

能沸騰的也會冷 走下去是單向門
再也繞不回我們 彼此坦誠 的單純

從朋友升等成情人，
感情將擁有最大的升溫幅度，
很誘人，
但我們都知道，
一切事物都有始有終；
有熱有冷；
有起有落..
做了情人，
對方看到了你不完美的那一部份，
沒關係，愛情會蒙蔽他的眼睛。
可是熱情退去了以後呢？
不完美就會變得醜陋，
醜陋了有多少人還有勇氣愛下去？
腦海裡一直重播著那些難看的片斷，
對方還能被吸引來重新和你當朋友嗎？
因此我提到”單向門”，
出得去，卻回不來。

你不要愛我
不要我們有如果
我怕如果分手到時連朋友都沒得做

副歌應當保持簡單、口語化，
才有朗朗上口的效果。
“不要我們有如果”
是從我的平時愛說的一句話，
演化來的。
我常說，
“I plan, because I don’t appreciate too many maybes in my life.”
(我喜歡策劃，
因為我不喜歡我的生命有太多”如果“。)

你不要愛我
就輪不到你傷害我
就不會丟失你的線索
我沒法那樣活
只怪我太軟弱

愛上一個人的時候，
我們會把平時築起的防衛拆下，
將自己最赤裸，
最脆弱的自己展現給對方，
希望對方能夠信得過，
希望對方能夠小心翼翼地呵護自己，
而不是不趁機給予傷害。

一旦發覺自己受傷害，
我們不自覺地像貝殼一樣，
將自己的心關起來。
關閉的心，
無人能接近。
理虧的對方，
會漸漸地走遠，
一直到斷絕來往。
但他畢竟是自己最在乎的人，
失去消息，
是多麼疼痛的事。

你此刻是否一樣覺得好恨
最為殘忍是 承認 知己 這個 緣份

張小嫻說：“世界最遙遠的距離不是生與死，
而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我愛你。”
其實我覺得，
世界最遙遠的距離，
是你我都知道彼此相愛，
緣份卻只允許我們做知己。

愛情友情不平等 沒權利愛卻心疼
你是如此對的人 怕做情人會變成敵人

愛情和友情不平等，
因為愛人有很多朋友沒有的權利。
愛人無論做甚麼事，
藉口往往比較堂皇，
做的小事，
獲得的感動也比較多。
朋友則沒有資格說一些他們想說話，
想做的事。
就算同樣出自關心，
朋友不能送花，
不能親吻自己，
不能想像一起醒來。
情人就可以。

你不要愛我
這沒結果的結果
就誰也不會走 那也算幸福我哭甚麼

如果相愛是結果，
做一輩子的知己就是沒有結果的結果。
既然不能相愛，
兩個相互在乎的朋友能一直相互相伴下去，
已經算是幸福，
已經比世上很多人幸運得多了，
還有甚麼資格難過？

你不要愛我
請別再那樣看著我
假裝不懂你眼神失落
可知我多折磨
有多愛都不…
我多愛你都不說

歌曲在接近尾聲的時候，
對方擺明已知道無論做甚麼，
都沒希望了。
雖無法改變歌者的心意，
卻因為真心，
而無法掩飾自己的失望和失落。
歌者並沒有道歉，
只在心裡暗自吶喊著，
暗自心碎著，
因為，
有多少愛，
有多愛，
都千萬不準說。

拋物線

Dunno why, decided to google "小寒” this morning and saw a song that I thot wasn't nice when i heard it earlier before going out.. And saw that the song was actually written by 小寒.. 而不知觉中，realised the meaning of her lyrics..

So went all out and read thru her blog.. and found this song.. a song that i like very much.. but just do not understand the lyrics.. and now i finally sorta know.. so copying it over her for my personal reading cos i dun wana flip thru so many entries again when i wana read it..


“拋物線”詞解
Author: 小寒09.09.2009

“過了最高點, 總是墜落。唯有祈禱不要摔得太痛。”

先來看一下把蔡妹拍得美美的MV

“拋物線”



我最喜歡黃昏和煙火那一慕，
你們呢?
導演這次將她裝進了一個圓筒形的道具，
據說應該是個試管。


但不知是否我想太多
我怎麼總覺得它看起來像一個時光機，
好像她是從未來飛回來的人，
看透了人世煙火，
站在人群中向現在的人們訴說愛情的種種經歷。

先說這首詞的來源：
有別於我今年發表過的一些作品，
拋物線的詞花了挺長一段時間（一年！）才寫好的。
蔡妹在搬到台灣，許久沒連絡時，
突然給我寄來一首demo。
和”達爾文”一樣，
這首歌也是她某一天醒來決定為她自己喜歡的歌手所寫的。
這回，是那英。

我從沒為那英寫過歌詞，
對她的口氣並不熟悉
（這是藉口啦，是因為她沒催我，我就take my time哈哈）。
於是，我很不要命地，
把歌收了起來，沒寫。
突然有一天，我感到很內疚，
便寫了這首”拋物線”。

當作教材來說一說：
歌詞的主歌與副歌截然不同。
詞人往往喜歡在主歌加入場景，
在副歌使用對話的方式來將主題說出。
我一般也是。
但這首歌是反過來的。
因為曲子的結構本來就是這樣。
主歌的旋律一直重複著，好像一個人在自言自語。
於是我寫了：
“我確實說　我這樣說　我不在乎結果
我對你說　我有把握　成功例子好多
人們虛假又造作　總愛得不溫不火
我們用真心就不會有差錯
我沒想過我會難過　你竟然離開我“
﹣來描述歌手從自信到對對方驚訝的心情轉折。

後面的一段的主歌，基於情緒較為激動，
我利用了後悔和遺憾的口氣來為這段感情做結尾。
“我好想說　我只想說　我不要這後果
可是你說　相對來說　走開是種解脫
當初親密的動作　變成當下的閃躲
感情的過程出了什麼差錯
我沒想過我會難過　你終於離開我“
﹣敘述歌手認可了愛情挽不回的結論。

副歌和歌名靈感來源則是：
來自一部Adam Sandler 和 Drew Barrymore主演的 “Wedding Singer”當中的一段對白。
Robbie (Adam Sandler飾）: How did you know that Glenn was the Right One?
Julia （Drew Barrymore飾）: The right one, ah… I always just Envisioned the Right One being someone I could see myself growing old with.

啊，”Envision”是許多自信的男女對自己未來的視域。
我們常常以為自己能會推測自己的幸福和成功。
可是，真的會實現嗎？
我們國中時上體育課時學習丟擲標槍(Javelin)一樣，
我們都知道，可以很用力很用力地將它往前仍，
但它是否可以飛得更遠，或甚至是否得到達我們預估的結果，
當中還要得到時間、風向、角度其他種種阻力的許可。
正如用愛情做出發，最後是否能安全降落在幸福裡，誰知道。
“愛沿著　拋物線 離幸福　總降落得差一點“
奇怪的是，我們好多人的心都摔不死，只能躺在那裡呻吟著，活生生地感受著心的巨痛。
“流著血心跳卻不曾被心痛消滅 真真切切“
（這句是改寫過的，修成沒那麼刺骨、絕望。
因為這張專輯的走向應是比以往的輕盈、正面。）

我們小時候，父母和老師教會我們，
天時地力人和還有努力，才是確保往後到達目標的要素。
於是我們努力地做好自己，同時尋找著Mr Right，
年輕時的我們的卻忍不住憑第一眼感覺去認定他就是對的人。
“青春的　拋物線　把未來　始於相遇的地點“

只能說，這首詞是“達爾文“的“長大篇“
我之前說過：“懂得永恆得要我們 進化成更好的人“
但我們都知道，理論歸理論，現實才是真理。
愛到沸沸揚揚飛到天上之後，我們就會看到：

月兒就是月兒，自己不會發亮。
它的光芒乃來自太陽每天都在改變的照射。
愛情，真的被我們這些文字工作者偉大化了。

“至高後才了解 世上月圓月缺只是錯覺“

Silence

Silence is without sound to many, but to me it is not.
Silence sometimes sounds very loud, especially to me it does.
Silence definition is soundless, but my definition of silence is noise.
Isn't it confusing and strange? I hear silence screaming again.

当冬夜渐暖

很多事情　不是谁说了就算 　　
即使伤心　结果还是自己担 　　
多少次失望表示着多少次期盼 　　
事实证明　幸福很难 　　

我们之间　不是谁说了就算 　　
拉扯的爱　徒增结局的难堪 　　
一百次相爱只要有一次的绚烂 　　
下一次　会更勇敢 　　

当冬夜渐暖　当大海也不再那么蓝 　　
当月色的纯白变得阴暗 　　
那只是代表快乐不再那么简单 　　

当冬夜渐暖　当夏夜的树上不再有蝉 　　
当回忆老去的痕迹斑斑 　　
那只是因为悲伤从来　
都不会有答案 　　

我们之间　不是谁说了就算 　　
拉扯的爱　徒增结局的难堪 　　
一百次相爱只要有一次的绚烂 　　
下一次　会更勇敢 　　

当冬夜渐暖　当大海也不再那么蓝 　　
当月色的纯白变得阴暗 　　
那只是代表快乐不再那么简单 　　

当冬夜渐暖　当夏夜的树上不再有蝉 　　
当回忆老去的痕迹斑斑 　　
那只是因为悲伤从来　都不会有答案 　　

当冬夜渐暖　当青春也都烟消云散 　　
当美丽的故事都有遗憾 　　
那只是习惯把爱当作喜欢 　　
重要的是　我们如何爱过那一段

Love this Song!

因为爱情

演唱：王菲&陈奕迅

给你一张过去的CD

听听那时我们的爱情

有时会突然忘了我还在爱着你

再唱不出那样的歌曲

听到都会红着脸躲避

虽然会经常忘了我依然爱着你

因为爱情 不会轻易悲伤

所以一切都是幸福的模样

因为爱情 简单的生长

依然随时可以为你疯狂

因为爱情 怎么会有沧桑

所以我们还是年轻的模样

因为爱情 在那个地方

依然还有人在那里游荡人来人往

再唱不出那样的歌曲

听到都会红着脸躲避

虽然会经常忘了我依然爱着你

因为爱情 不会轻易悲伤

所以一切都是幸福的模样

因为爱情 简单的生长

依然随时可以为你疯狂

因为爱情 怎么会有沧桑

所以我们还是年轻的模样

因为爱情 在那个地方

依然还有人在那里游荡人来人往

给你一张过去的CD

听听那时我们的爱情

有时会突然忘了我还在爱着你