对不起，又来了，听着听着，眼泪又落了

再也没资格陪你去听演唱会，再也没资格与你坐着听你说你最近的日子，再也没资格那么的默默坐在你对面望着你，watching how animated you are when you speak, how lively, how much live you have in your life. 我最爱的那灿烂的笑容， 再也不属于我的了。 痛。 

要快乐。你一定要幸福。 你一定会的。 

这是我最后一次因你而哭, 因为我再也没资格了。。
希望你永远快乐
You'll always have a special place in my heart. The person I always yearn to be. I am so thankful to have known you, to be attracted to you and to have admire you deeply once in my life. I hope, one day, I can become the person that you will like.
I've always thot, 总有一天我会等到你。 我太错了。
你一定要开心, 要幸福。

痛 痛 痛
真的好喜欢你
不得不放手了。。
祝你永远幸福, 天天开心,快乐。。
能与你在一起的女生, 真的好幸福, 好羡慕她

想念你。。

Have a happie day!

还蛮佩服自己的，能看着你的policies,听着歌，留下眼泪。。

10 July 2012-又是他的故事

你这一辈子， 永远都会有这个女生，守着你，盼着你，爱着你，想着你，希望你天天都那么的开心，无论平穷与否，无论未来会发生什么事情，这个傻女孩，仍然，希望，有一天，能与你在一起。。 真的很对不起，每次看到你是，always find it difficult to tear my eyes off you.. I really wonder, do I really like you? But do you know, I always feel so comfortable with you, esp after telling you my feelings towards you, and being rej ted by you. Somehow, it frees me, and I can be totally myself when I am with you.  I love it, when I first saw you looking at the thickening cream, I'm so sorry that I was staring at you, and not calling you, cos that's the only way I can look at you without being obvious..  I love it when we were paying at the counter, and you were just besides me, and our faces were so close to each other.  I love it when you always so so fast, and I gotta run to catch up with you. I love it when I wear my heels, so that I can look right at you, when I tilt my head up.  I love it when you share ur exercise routine with me, and telling me that your shoulder blades hurt.  I love it that you've grown bulkier, and looks so good today.  i love it, when I'm still penning the after effects you have on me, even thou it's more than half a day since you left. Hopes  ur cakes turn out well.  你知道吗，我深深相信， 你真的是值得等的。。 我愿用我这一辈子的时间，的青春，的生命来等你。 I'll leave everything to God's hand.  Thanks God for this wonderful day. 

thanks Sandy

Thanks, Sandy

第三次与他去看 Sandy的concert 了。 
这次，是个好棒的concert。Sandy was amazing!
Thanks for letting me fall in love with ur child like image during ur 伤痕album. Ur songs are simply touching, the way you sing is simply captivating, and ur stamina, amazing. 真是一个很棒很棒的concert..
From the beginning where you rocked us thru, to the part I love most when you sang 词不达意and danced with the dancer, it's really beautiful, very artistic, very, very powerful, yet fragile and beautiful. 好几次，差点被你弄哭，luckily the movement between ur songs were rapid enough to divert my attention.  And of cos, it was so pretty when the bubbles were in the air..
And you know what, I kept telling myself that Tze Vin doesn't means anything other than a friend, and I think I can quite keep to this! Even now, thou I really wana blog down tonite's memories of him, but I've decided that i want to write to remember the concert more than of him. I will con't to work hard to keep him out of my mind.  And my fave performance, 词不达意, is actually abt a ger liking someone and wants to find a way to communicate with him to tell him that she likes him, sorta describes the situation I am in. But I'll work hard, we will always be 2 parallel lines only. 
所以，今晚，除了记下当他看到我拿不到confetti 之后而帮我从地上捡了起来给我，and it's now safely tucked in the Sistic envelope and lying in my drawer now, there's nth else That i wana pen down and indulge myself in.
And one more thing, he mentioned this when we were leaving, 下次来我们要再park在这里。will there be a next time? Let time tell bah..
Dear Father God.. Thank you for creating such a beautiful nite for me.. Pls bless Tze Vin and help him find a job that he wants, will enjoy and is happy about. May his career path be successful, and happiness to surround him and his family always! 

爱、深、痛

突然间，看着你的Facebook,看着你留下的 comments, 看着你与别人的 interaction, 感觉与你很遥远。 我们始终是两个平行线，属于两个完全不同世界的人。你，是那么的友善，那么的爱与人接触，身边永远都少不了朋友。好朋友，新朋友，各种国际的朋友，以后的 CEO，ministers, headliners etc.. 而我，却是一个不爱交朋友，没信心与人交谈，不爱为了chat for the sake of chatting 的人。
我们怎么能够有一天能够走在一起呢？ 而你知道吗，我喜欢你的就是那份充满活力，那个笑容灿烂的你。 看到你笑，总让我觉得世界上是没有烦恼的。 我总能陶醉你那滔滔不绝的话题中。 我真的好喜欢你。而我真的是一个很执着的人，我永远都会将自己心爱的人，事，物与梦想抓得很紧的。就快要迈向单恋你的第5年了，从26岁，一直到了30岁的我。 是该放下了吧。 希望，我不会再为你而流泪了，希望，我不会再把你当成我失败的借口了。 希望，我不会因你，也害你在被大家嘲笑与作弄了。我真的不知道为什么会那么的喜欢你，真的，喜欢一个人是没有原因的。真的不知道我是不会爱，还是太懂爱了。
The seed was planted at Sandy's first concert, the KTV where you bought 2 bottles of evian for me, the gathering at orchard where we spent time alone chatting, and you giving me attention that touched me, the church musical which a letdown, lee hom's concert, all the farewell and welcome back gatherings for you, Sandy's concert again, and of cos, the Vietnam getaway.. Which eventually made me decide to let you know that I like you, and how I have to pretend to be nonchanlent thereafter, 每时每刻，都深深的刻在我的心深处。希望我能在这次的concert将一切放下了。
From the bottom of my heart, I wish that you will find the person of ur dreams, to accompany you for the rest of ur life, for everything in ur life to be smooth sailing, to be able to smile as happily, as heartily just like everyday in ur life, for angels to surround you daily, and to give you every reason to to feel blessed. 希望这次真的能够放得下你。
Loving you every day of my remaining life..

梁静茹 - 别再为他流泪


你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好 就算了
心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧 一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你 那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧 一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧 一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后管他是谁

对不起，又想起你

正听着sandy's song to prepare for the concert..
N 不知觉，又想起你。
Hope you'll have a wonderful day today, and is recuperating after ur house moving!
Hope you like ur new place, and for happiness to surround you daily!
Looking forward to spending those few hrs with you soon!

好想你啊，沈慈愍.. 情人节快乐 =)

Have been smiling, luffing, feeling estatic for the entire day..
All because I had a chance to sit by urside for those short 2 hrs ytd..
Lemme pen it down in case I forget..
So here I was, reached Darren's place on time..
My heart was beating real fast when I suspected I heard ur voice from Darren's phone.. I was thinking, couldn't be you rite? You said you'll reach abt 9+.. And when Darren told me that you're coming up, my heart was just pounding, and I was clenching my fist.. It's a natural first instinct reaction.. So I told myself, Sindy, pls take a deep breathe, he's only a friend.
And you appeared in front of me soon, in that funnie waiter lookalike top.

And the first thing you did is to pass the U weekly with Mayday to me. Thanks for remembering that I like Mayday.
N to get the cd from me, and returned the $20 to me..
N I was just watching tv ( not you, the television, but i was listening n thinking of you) while you were irritating Jayce and Darren.

I was really happie, that eventually I got to sit besides you during blackjack.
And you shouting into my ears for abt an HR.. To be frank, it was really too loud and I was starting to have a headache, but I just Wana to be with you for as long as I can.. N thus I 忍 n 忍..

I think, it's really obvious to everyone that I like you very much, I only appeared when you are turning up for the gathering.
Darren's really nice to me, hahaa.. To tell me that I'm gonna get married to you this Yr.. I hope Darren's word comes true.. Haha.. N so I gotta pretend that it's a joke, n I guess you were rather fuming inside, but as usual, with your high EQ, you kept quiet while they continue teasing us, the only 2 single in the group.

But I dun care, i dun even care if I tell everyones that I like you le.. Cos I no longer have any pride when I'm with you..

我只是朋友

陈伟联 - 永远的朋友
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如果你很忙
我到街上去晃一晃
身为一个朋友
有些事情不该勉强
看你黑着眼圈
今晚很长我睡不着
到底是谁 害你这么想
因为太爱你
拼命达到你的需要
虽然只是朋友
总比什么都不是好
借你肩膀依靠
借你关心也借你微笑
我很想给 你却不要
爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有
真挚的做一个永远的朋友
看着你旧旧的简讯内容
我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄
爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油
虚弱的做一个永远的朋友
几次累的想断绝联络
却听见你说 情人比不上朋友
我总是有让你想出声的方法
我却没有让自己离开的力量
也许友情才能地久天长
我只是朋友

Wau biam, do you know that I woke up 3 times last nite, just to chk my watsapp.. It's not that I intentionally woke up, but I'll just suddenly open my eyes, instinctively reach for the phone to chk watsapp.. 2.30, 3.30 and 5.30.. I must've been crazy..
Am so happie today.. Got a chance to talk so much with you.. 幸福到爆！
My colleagues were asking me y do I look so happie today.. Haha.. They all Thot they I've closed some big case..
You know, my heart dropped when you said you feel this will be the last time that Sandy will be coming to Singapore.. You know, it's cos of Sandy that I have this opportunity to occupy ur thots for those short moments.. So Sandy.. Pls cont to come to SG pls..
I am so grateful that I decided to name myself after Sandy then.. 原来whatever happens eons years ago, may really affect who n what you are or may become. Grateful for giving the best day of 2012. I'm sure 6th Apr will be the next best day of 2012 for me. I'm so anticipating it!

好想你。。
May all ur dreams, aspirations and expectations for 2012 be fulfill, and life to be great for you!
Stay happie always!

沉默是我最后温柔 是因为我太爱你

You're seated rite besides me now..
好幸福！

30 Dec 2011..

Gonna see you in about 1.5 hours more..
hope you're sleeping like a baby now before going over to susu jie place..
lotsa butterflies are in my stomach now.. having that quesy feeling again..
as much as it hurts me to see you, and pretending that nothing ever happened, the chance of being able to see you again outweighs this pain.. i like you so much that i'll just pretend that nothing ever happened, and chat with you as thou we are just friends.. which we are..
i'm so dreading the gathering later.. but i realli realli wanna see you again, to be seated besides you, hear you speak, talk about your life, how poor thing you are, see and hear you smile and just to be able to be in your presence.. thanks for giving me such a wonderful belated xmas gift..
thanks..
God.. please give me this courage and strength..

Thanks God for you.. N Sandy Lam

So surprise that you still ask me to go Sandy concert.. I Thot I'll never get a chance to be alone with you again..
Thankful that you love Sandy so much n have the impression that I like her that much too..
Please God.. Pls let him be able to attend this concert..

Listening to Faye's song now.. Remembered that you asked about Faye's concert date during Darren's wedding..
Going to see you again in about 15 more days time..
Wishing that you're having lotsa fun Shopping for Xmas, catching up with friends, and Doing things that makes you happie.
Hope you received a big fat bonus this year to affirm ur escalating importance in ur Co.
Have a fantastic day today, and stay happie.
Muacks!

又要快看到你了。。
dunno 要带what type of feelings to face you..
glad to see that you're happie
stay happy and may God look after you daily..

really really hope one day, you'll come into this blog, to take a look. to know, that in this world, someone is so attracted to you. i must be fantasizing. =(

Hope you're having a good day..
It's been raining for many days here.. How's the weather like no matter where you may be rite now?
希望你天天开心！
Take good care..