If I Shall..

My Gugu passed away during CNY, and now, my grandma is also facing death soon.
Sorta unexpected, cos she was still so strong and loud when we saw her during CNY. And suddenly she's in a coma in the hospital.. Surprised. No doubt we do not have much love for her, and the most memorable memory i have of her is her giving me part of her apple when she was staying with us previously, it's still quite sad that someone whom i'm supposed to be close with is leaving me soon forever.
And it feels sorta strange to see my grandma lying unconcious on the bed with so many tubes attached to her body when she is normally so healthy and strong. =(
Anyway, wrote this note when i was attending Gugu funeral in Malaysia. didn't want to publish it as i was bearing the hope that TV will be visiting this blog after i tell him that i like him. But since he will not be coming into this blog (hopefully, only in the near future), and the fact that my grandma is passin on, i guess i will publish this note so that shijia will not have to fight to fulfil my last wishes bah..
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My Gugu passed away on Chu Si. Received a call from the other Gugu ytd on the news, and drove down to Pontian to attend the funeral today.
Looking back, my father passed away 17 years ago at age 61.. so now, 17 years later, this Gugu passed on as well. Finally, the siblings are reunited again.
Grieving
When i pass on, how do i want my funeral to be like?
In the past, i used to say, let my mum decide, cos it will not matter to me since I am no longer around. However, thinking of the tedious and adminstrative process of the wake and funeral and the rituals thereafter, year after year until the next generation is unwiling to carry on thereafter, and worst (!) doing the rituals out of obligation, i do feel that's not i want.
How do i want my funeral to be like?
I want it to be simple. A few nights of remembrance. A few nites for my family to have an opportunity to properly rest and grieve, to run thru' their memories of me, the laughter, happiness, tears and all sorta emotions I had brought for them. Not being tied down by any adminstrative stuffs. No rituals or monks, no praying, but it's just the pple that have touched my life, or pple i've touched their lives for us to say a proper private goodbye before my physical being vanish from earth.
I want it to be a celebration of my short life on earth. I want pple to associate me with their best memory of me. I want to see tears with dignity, I just want a few minutes of silence for pple to indulge in their last moment of me and a final goodbye eulogy from pple I love and pple who loves me before the final goodbye at the crematorium.
I wish for the undertaker, or whoever wil be conducting the session to ask all those who wana tell me anything to do it at that moment before my Father God brings me to my permanent home. My only request is to play my fave songs- Leo Ku, Eason Chen, Faye, Sandy, Selected Lee Hom, Mayday, Jacky, Jeff, Fish, Home (Elliot Yamin version only) and those i normally play in my mp3, and for there to be lotsa flowers. I love Gerberra, lilies, roses and all types of flowers. I would like another projector to run thru all my photos with my family, friends and individual in my laptop.
Graceful, simple and beautiful.
That's all. I want pple leaving my funeral to leave with a smile on their face and happy memories in their heart. I do not want any further rituals thereafter. I do not want my mum or family to carry on offering incense, meat, or paper offerings every anniversary etc. I just want my mum not to be tired out, not to make it a big event year after year and force her body to take further sufferings, and making my sis and brother to do a lot of things to make her feel comfort at their own time and happiness. If anyone wants to remember me, I will be really appreciative if you will just make a donation to the SPH school pocket money fund to help others. If anyone misses me at anytime or during any speacial occasion, just head to ECP and look up. I'll be there! =)

只要你开心就好。
Thanks God for giving you one of ur happiest moment! =)

真的很努力不想你了。
Hope you'll have a great day at Church!
Hope that one day, we'll have a makeup session for the Park Hyatt buffet we missed 4 Sundays ago..
希望你天天开心！

别再想了, Sindy.

不是我不明白　這樣並不算太壞
懂得愛　說來無奈　來自對你虧待
沒刻意掩埋　沒對他坦白　你還在

會進來嗎　你在送我回家我還在猜測
可都是真的了
再見面前　一直想像還有某種關聯
但客氣　是拒絕

新的朋友　不再重疊
你的世界　我在邊緣

不是我不明白　這樣並不算太壞
能再次關懷　時間洗刷所有不愉快
後來的愛　我們嘗試去寬待
懂得愛　說來無奈　來自對你虧待
沒刻意掩埋　沒對他坦白　你還在

沒說分手　終於是能開玩笑的朋友
不是不難過的
多少年了　我想過能夠和你一起老的
卻都有別人了

新的朋友　不再重疊
我的世界　你在邊緣

不是我不明白　有些話沒說出來
能再次關懷　時間洗刷所有不愉快
後來的愛　我們嘗試去寬待
懂得愛　說來無奈　來自對你虧待
沒刻意掩埋(沒有)　沒對他坦白　你還在

不是我不明白　說悲哀並不應該
我們的關懷　像愛但又說不上愛
沒有後來　我們才學會愛
但現在　說來感慨　不是那個未來
我們說好的　不會更改的　你會在
不是我不明白　　

Since you said you'll not be reading my blog.. i guess, i can safely continue to pen down my thots of you.
Lotsa things were running thru my mind from Sunday till today. Why did i manage to convince myself that I should let you know about my feelings towards you? Why do i want to change anything about this friendship i hold so dear? Would I prefer you not to reply my card and thus render me worthless as a friend to you, or to receive that email from you?
I've no idea.
My heart has been in pain for the past 2 days.. and it still is, Just like having a hole in there. Despite you saying that you selfishly prefer things to be the same, please forgive me for not being able to transform that feeling of wanting to be with you back to a platonic friendship immediately, or in the near foreseeable future.
I kept telling myself, all i need to do is cry to everything out, but i couldn't even squeeze out a tear. I kept wondering, do i really like you? if so why can't i cry it out? Or if all i like is the feeling of having someone to be with and you were the nearest convenient person, how come i cannot accept any other people in my life so that I will still be available for you?

Do you know that your email made me fall deeper for you? How nice you were in rejecting me, How considerate you were in giving me an excuse to say that you misread my card so that I can look and feel better at ur expense etc. Why did God let me fall deeper for you?

3 more months before I'll see you again.
I promise I will do my best not to think too much about you, not to view your facebook obsessively, not to indulge in any memories about you or link every songs or shows to you.
I’ll do my best to transform my feeling towards you back to a platonic friendship, eventhou I know that I’m lying to myself.
I’ll do my best to ignore the hole in my heart until I can finally cry everything out.
I’ll do my best to become someone whom you will be attracted to, so that comes May, I have a chance that you may change your mind.

If what you wrote in n ur email is the whole truth, and that the sole reason is that you do not prefer to date friends, I will tell you to unfriend me, take me as thou you just know me today thru a mutual friend, would you don’t mind wanting to know me better, or would you still not be attracted to me like now? Do you think it never cross my mind that I might be potentially giving up this friendship in order to take this relationship further? But after thinking thru and as my feeling for you intensify over the past 4 years, I feel it’s worth the risk to attempt to do so and I know that I will treasure it even more preciously.
I believe your friend means a lot to you, such that you were willing to transform the friendship to something further, and it might have hurt you deeply that you’ve lost your friendship with this close friend such that you swear off dating friends. I don’t know how long it will take, but I will wait for your wound to heal, and to continue to work hard to make myself become someone that you dare to take the leap of faith and give dating friend another try.

痛

Thanks and 我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個我 不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容

不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯 早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了 賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的 借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果

會有什麼 什麼都沒有
早點看破 才看得見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了 賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的 我總會把你戒掉

因为我喜欢你，所以决定改变我对你的感觉

How do you know when you fall in love with a person?

He should be at work now.. Tues and Thurs is when he doesn't have gym and lesson.
Did he really didn't see the card? Or is he feigning ignorance?
If so, he didn't bother going to the blog to even take a look?
That's really sad then..
Doesn't even wana find out more about my feelings towards him? Am I being narcissistic? Is it that I'm so wrapped in my own thinking that I cannot understand and accept that he doesn't likes anything about me?
Am I twisting my own thots? To make me believe that this is a 2 way feeling? Cos i think way too much into his every actions? That I managed to convience myself that everything he said, wrote, mentioned and done before is actually a subtle hint that he likes me? And thus I sank deeper and deeper into this self created relationship?
Do I really like him? Or do I like the feeling that there's someone I can think about? How do you know when you fall in love with a person?

属于

我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我赶追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了 不要呢
或许吧 或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱 该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢 不要呢?
是他吧 命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧 他原来就在这里啊
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

Always Live Life to the Fullest

Don't let go of hope
Hope gives you the strength to keep going
When you feel like giving up

Don't ever quit believing in yourself
As long as you believe you Can
You will always have reason for trying

Don't let anyone hold your Happiness in their hands
Hold it in yours, so it will always be within your Reach

Don't measure success or failure by material wealth
But by how you Feel;
Our feelings determine the richness of our Lives

Don't let bad moments overcome You
Be patient
and they will pass

Don't hesitate to reach out for Help
We all need it
from time to time

Don't run away from Love but towards Love
Because it is your deepest Joy

Don't wait for what you want to come to you
Go after it with all that you are
Knowing that Life will meet you Halfway

Don't feel like you've lost
When plans and dreams fall short of your hopes
Anytime you learn something new
About Yourself or about Life
You have progress

Don't do anything that takes away
From your Self Respect,
Feeling good about Yourself
Is essential to feeling good about Life

Don't ever forget how to Laugh
Or be too proud to Cry
Or too stubborn to Smile

Don't ever forget a friend who truly loves you
As it could be that friend who is true to your needs
Don't ever forget who helped you Grow as you need
for more seeds may often re-appear

With all the above, Live Life to the Fullest

Think I'll chicken out again if I do not pen these down

Why I finally decide to tell you that I like you

1) I need a closure to this feeling towards you. I need to move on already. I need to open my life to more pple instead of shutting them out. I can't possibly be still in this limbo at age 30 and beyond. It's scary. But I know I cannot move on unless you're married (and it will seriously break my heart thou I've been bracing myself for it for the past few years, but will be really happy for you)

2) Received lotsa signals that I should tell you that I like you.
For eg, was watching 游龙戏凤 during CNY, and there was this part in the show where there was a game show whereby pple go onto TV to express their love towards the person they like. They featured this guy who went on to express his love towards this lady, eventhou this lady had recently passed away. And the gameshow host asked this guy, why are you expressing your love even thou this lady is dead? And the guy answered, "the lady met with an accident and died otw to the date which I wanted to tell her that I like her". So I want to express my love to her now to let her know that at least, in this world, there's someone who likes her very much.
Somehow, i feel that God arranged for me to see this part to let me muse over this. I've been thinking over this in the past few days, to tell you or not to tell you? I really dun wish to cause any unnecessary pressure to you by letting you know that I like you, and i definitely don't wish to spoil/ amend this precious relationship I hold so dear to my heart. At the same time, at the very least, i would like you to know that, in this world, there's someone who likes you very much, who's very grateful to have known you and feels that you are the most special person in this world.


3) Was reading my entire blog today and realised that I've been penning that I wana tell you that I like you before you went for your Masters. One reason was because I was scared something will happen to you there since it is a significantly more dangerous place and I'll live in regret forever , and the other was that you might find someone you like there and I'll never have a chance to let you know that I like you. Read that there were many times that I wanted to let you know, but i've always chose the easy way out. As such, it caused me to be where I am today. Stucked. Unless I address this relationship honestly, I'll still be like this 2 years from now. My excuse of my inaction at that time has always been, i do not see the need to tell him, cos all i ask for is to have to right to be able to be by his side, and for him to be happy. There's no need to let him knows that I like him if all i want is this and I can have all these via the friendship i have with him currently. Then why is there a need to tell you now? All i'm asking for is just to have the same friendship, to have the right to be by ur side whenever we meet up, and for you to be happy still. I have no answer, I only know that there's an urge, a nagging thot, something in my heart/ brain that's telling me it's time to move on. Stop this childish behavior already. Even to the extent that I might lose this friendship if things become awkward, there's a need for me to release myself from this mental web that i've entangled myself in.

4) I really wish to become part of your life. Thou I keep saying that i do not wish to change any part of our friendship, there's no denying that I hope that I will have a chance to become part of your life, to have an opportunity to be together with you. Maybe my thinking is very traditional, but I always feel that it should always be guys to take the first approach. But after so many years, the desire to become part of your life outweighs my pride and traditional thinking. A friend told me this, just check with him (you) if there's any possibility of exploring a deeper r/s. Another friend told me that I'll live to regret it when you have a gf cos this happened to her. Not telling the guy she likes that she likes him and by the time she wanted to do that, the guy was already attached. And another friend told me that i need to let you know, cos in this world, all pple fall under 3 catagories, First is "Like and take action. Second is "Don't mind but wun take action" and third is "Don't like and will reject". Eventhou I'm not under catagory 1, but there's a chance that I'm under catagory 2 and you wouldn't mind me if I tell you that I like you. Of cos, there's a good chance I'm under Cat 3 cos we've both been single for so long and i've always feel that you take me as one of the numerous friends you have and your niceness is the same towards everyone.

Thus, with all these reasons in mind, I hope I'll not chicken out again to let you know how I feel towards you.

I know that I’m not the lady you like, but I’m definitely the lady who likes you the most.

Well, Mr Sim, if I do not play chicken the next time I see you again, here's a welcome post for you.

还记得第一次看到你是在O Week 的 preparation period. I was seated with some pple from my OG group playing Dai Dee and you and Yuan Bing walked over and started chatting and playing with us. I only vaguely remembering Fat Jon introducing both of you to us. That's the first 记忆I have of you. The following day, during O week, you and Yuan Bing were in charge of the games activities and I spoke to you for a while at the NUS field.

Thereafter, started to know you better when you were in the Loreal Project with SK and Jane, during our internship at TradeOne and when you were running the D&D event. 讲真的，那时对你的印象并不是很深。只觉得你是一个很好很好的人。Do you still remember, during our internship period, there was this Malay guy whom i told you was chasing me, and in order to make him give up on me, i asked you to walk me to the Raffles Place MRT station and I'll hold you fingers to turn off that Malay guy? Some time later, i heard SK and Jane repeat this incident to me and i realised that you thought that i actually sorta came out with this story so as to hold your hand. Actually, at that time, i do not feel anything towards you at all, except that you're a great friend. Especially since you were gracious enough to refer me into Trade One then.
Some time later, i guess it was your final sem, when we were doing the D&D event, and dunno why, Jiawei invited me to her place one day. And at there, she mentioned to me that you were chasing her. You were asking her out to watch movies and were sending flowers to her. That was the first time I realised that, "Hey, so you're just pretending not to like any of the gers but is actually doing lotsa stuff behind the scenes."
Some time later again, probably after your graduation, I heard from Duanqin that you sent flowers to her place and asked her out on V day after she broke off with Duan Lang. At that time, I was quite surprised. First is because just a few days before that, Darren also told me he wanted to chase Duanqin. And suddenly, I heard from DQ that you were also chasing her. In fact, there was once when I was at her place and I saw she is in ur ICQ’s private list. It made me sad cos I thot all of us were equal friends to you. It also made me reflected, “Hey, why are these 2 guys interested in the same lady who just gotten single recently, and here I am, being single for so many years, and neither of you are even slightly interested?” That was when I realised, looks and grooming is very important. I also realised that although you always criticize DQ in front of us, you were actually quite 口是心非。

When did I start falling for you?
I really can’t pinpoint any particular date or event.
The most significant event should be the first Sandy’s concert we went to. On hindsight, as per today, while recalling why I decided to attend the concert with you, did I remembered that I was listening to 933 when the commercial for Sandy’s concert went on air. So I was thinking to myself, I wana go if I can find anyone to go with me. Surprisingly, you texted me shortly after that to ask if I’m interested in going. I also remembered that you asked me while we were waiting to go into the indoor stadium, “Sindy ah, 下次Sandy 来开演唱会的时候, 你还要来吗？and my reply to you was ‘看先lor”..

Dunno why, it seems that I started developing feelings for you after that concert. This feeling started to grow rapidly and for no reason, I suddenly fell madly in love with you. That’s why, thereafter, as much as I can, I’ll always attend any gathering as long as you are there.

其实很多次，我都有机会告诉你我有多喜欢你的，可是我每一次都chicken out. Just like the 11 days here. I’m sure you’re aware that I’m here at HCMC only because you’re here. Similarly, I stayed for so long only cos I wana spend more time with you, but I didn’t realize that I will start to get on ur nerves until you’re like disliking and avoiding me. I’m really sorry about it. 有时，当我们越在乎一个人的时候，就越想把他抓紧，也就更容易将他推开。
Actually, I was really sad when you started to give me the cold shoulder from Saturday nite and behaved grumpily on Sunday that I bought a tic home for Tuesday noon. On Monday nite, I was rehearsing how to 对你表白but lacked the guts to do so again when you started treating me normally, and even shared your ginger tea with me. Thus I decided to forfeit the recently purchased tickets. Anyway, the 表白script goes something like this
“ Tze Vin ah, I sense that you’ve not been very happy and is avoiding me for the past few days and I understand you do not want to talk about it. My sincere apologies if I’ve offended you unknowingly in the past few days and if you ever feel like talking about it, I’m always around.” That’s the first part. And the most probable response that you might give me is – nothing lor. And the second part is letting you know that I like you. “Also, I also wana tell you something, from the bottom of my heart, 我想告诉你我喜欢你。” 其实我已经喜欢你很多年了，可是我从来不敢告诉你。记得吗，I told you that I came here to spend sometime with myself, to find the direction on where I want to head towards in the next few years. So in order to move on, I really need a closure on this relationship. 你知道吗，暗恋一个人真的好累。天天都想着同样的一个人，thinking what you’ll be doing today, who you will interact or know today. Fearfully checking facebook daily, looking at photos of potential ladies or even worst, discovering that you have changed your relationship status from “Single” to “Attached”. Thinking if you’re happy today, thinking if I’ll bypass your thots today etc. thinking how to explain to pple why I’m not attached at such a ripe old age, explaining to my friends why you’re worth the wait for so many years than to accept the other pple wanting to come into my life. I’ve always wanted to tell you this for many many years already- at Lee Hom’s, 2nd Sandy’s and Jeff Concert, at the xmas musical at VCH, at ur place when I went to return ur cd to you, at orchard road last year when you came back for Xmas, at the Katong Mall KTV when we were alone tog at the last hour, at susu jie wedding when we were alone for a while.. all these times, 话都到了嘴边当却说不出来。。 宁愿眼睁睁的看着你离开也不敢告诉你我喜欢你。
Many times, I justify to myself. TV 喜欢的女生都是最美的，高瘦漂亮，他绝对看不上我的。Therefore, 没说会比有说好，因为at the very least, in my eyes, I can maintain an above average friendship with you. I’ll still have the right to look at you and luff, the right to 偷偷看你 and most importantly, the right to just be by ur side whenever we meet up. 还有，I can never forget the incidence at East Coast Park when we were learning roller blading together. I offered to hold your hand when you fell down and you totally ignored me. And when DQ offered her hand to you, you happily sang 牵手。Actually that hurts me deeply, cos all I was doing was offering help to you, but you pushed it away. As such, I always tell myself, what’s the point of letting him know that I like him? This feeling will not be reciprocated, and I’ll lose the right to be by his side from then on. Nothing matters as long as I can be by his side. However, after this visit, after this period of thinking thru’, I guess, it’s time to face the truth. 应该是时候告诉你了。Cos after this visit, I’m sure my status in ur heart has dropped greatly. Moving forward, I’m sure you’re no longer going to treat me like before and I guess, we’ll not be going out alone anymore. So,yup, it doesn’t matter if you know about me liking you or not any more.
Cos no matter what, I have lose this precious relationship that has been so important to me for the past few years.

No matter what, Tze Vin, I’m really grateful to you, for giving me such wonderful memories for the past few years. Thank you making me happy everyday just by thinking of you, thank you for letting me for always having a reason to look forward to in life, thank you for treating me so nice everytime I see you, thank you for taking those 2 precious photos with me that I’ll always look at whenever I’m down, Thank you for accompanying me to so many concerts and let me be in the presence of good music and company. thank you for ur graciousness for the past 11 days and sharing with me what’s ur typical day is like here. Thank you for bringing me around HCMC and for giving up the bed to me. Thank you for bearing with my teeth grinding and snoring. Thank you for forgiving me for my overstay and the intrusion into ur privacy, personal space and time. Thank you for letting me knows that I’m blessed by God cos he sent you into my life. Thank you for everything you have given me and just want to let you know that you’ll always have a very special place in my heart. I love you.

PS, just wana let you know, I know that I’m not the lady you like, but I can confidently say this, I’m definitely the lady who likes you the most.

Love,
Sindy

终于熬到最后一晚了。。

很抱歉Mr Sim， 害你这么多晚没得好睡了。。
I'm really sorry, but i think you're sick of hearing me say sorry to you already.
Thanks for ur graciousness and ur 包容。。

Things to do when I'm back!

Cut my hair and do manicure
Bring mum to massage
Renew my own motor insurance and check locker
Buy a present for Mr Sim- overnite bag, tie etc + card.
Go Pru to liquidate my investment
Liquidate FSM investment
Go thru PF
Call Xixiang and Edgar
Chk with Grace on TRA cheque

Honesty is the best Policy

I've always believe in honesty..
Can I be honest with this feeling?

Thinking Positively

If you want to get somewhere, you have to know where you want to go
and how to get there. Then never, never, never give up!

The secret of life isn't what happens to you,
but what you do with what happens to you.

Help other people to cope with their problems
and your own will be easier to cope with.

Never use the word impossible seriously again.
Toss it into the verbal wastebasket.

Self-trust is the first secret of success.
So believe in and trust yourself.

Stand up to your obstacles and do something about them.
You will find that they haven't half the strength you think they have.

Joy increases as you give it, and diminishes as you try to keep it for yourself.
In giving it, you will accumulate a deposit of joy greater than you
ever believed possible.

How you think about a problem is more important than the problem itself -
so always think positively.

Go at life with abandon; give it all you've got.
And life will give all it has to you.

Norman Vincent Peale

Some Great Stories

Five Lessons About The Way We Treat People

First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady...

During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"

Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50's, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade. "Absolutely," said the professor, "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say hello."

I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain...

One night, at 11:30 P.M., an older African American Woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rain storm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960's. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab.

She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home.

A special note was attached. It read: "Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's' bedside just before he passed away... God Bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others. Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole"

Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve...

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him.

"How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked.

"Fifty cents," replied the waitress.

The little boy pulled his hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it. "Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired.

By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient. "Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied.

The little boy again counted his coins. "I'll have the plain ice cream," he said.

The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies. You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

Fourth Important Lesson - The obstacle in Our Path...

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock.

Some of the King's' wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand! Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.

Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When It Counts...

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.

I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away."

Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.

I couldn't keep my balance

Liss, listen to me, "Sometimes to lose balance for love is part of living balanced life."
In the end i came to believe in something called the "Physics of the Quest".

A force in nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity. The rule of Quest Physics goes something like this. If you're brave enought to leave behind everything familiar and comforting which can be anything from you house to bitter, old resentments and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue, and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you prepared most of all and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself then the truth will not be withheld from you.

Now I understand why this show is call Eat, Pray, Love.. It's sequential!

Even smile in Liver! =)

Pple in Bali understand, in order to stay happy, they must always know where you are every moment. Right here is perfect balance. Right at meeting of heaven and earth. Not too much God, not too much selfish. Otherwise, life too crazy, you lose balance, you lose power. In morning, you do meditation from India. Serious, very serious. In day, you enjoy Bali. Then in Afternoon, come see me. End of day, you do new meditation, very simple. Sit in silence and smile. Smile with face, smile with mind, even smile in liver.
See you later, alligator!